There ya happy?

FRIENDS: Tell you not to do something stupid when drunk

Michigan FRIENDS: Will post 360 degree security so you dont get caught

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FRIENDS: Call your parents Mr. and Mrs

Michigan FRIENDS: Call your parents drunk as hell and tell them about the fat chick you tried to pick up

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FRIENDS: Hope the night out drinking goes smoothly, and hope that no one is late for the ride home.

Michigan FRIENDS: Know some wild shit will happen, and set up rally points and an E & E route.

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FRIENDS: Bail you out of jail and tell you what you did was wrong.

Michigan FRIENDS: Will be sitting next to you saying, Damn...that shit was fun "

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FRIENDS: Cry with you.

Michigan FRIENDS: laugh at you

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FRIENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back.

Michigan FRIENDS: Steal each other ' s stuff so often nobody remembers who bought it in the first place.

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FRIENDS: Are happy that someone picked up a one night stand and leave them alone.

Michigan FRIENDS: Will Crawl naked into the room with a camera and hope for the tag team.

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FRIENDS: Know a few things about you.

Michigan FRIENDS: Could write a book with direct quotes from you.

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FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that ' s what the crowd is doing.

Michigan FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowds ass that left you.

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FRIENDS: Would knock on your door.

Michigan FRIENDS: Walk right in and say, "I'm home!"

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FRIENDS: Will try and talk to the bouncer when you get tossed out of the bar.

Michigan FRIENDS: Will buck up and go after the bouncer for touching you on the way out.

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FRIENDS: Will wish you had enough money to go out that night, and are sorry you couldn't come.

Michigan FRIENDS: Will share their last dollar with you, drag you along, and try to steal free drinks all night.
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FRIENDS: Will take your drink away when they think you've had enough.

Michigan FRIENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place and say, "Bitch, you better drink the rest of that shit, you know we don't waste. That's alcohol abuse!!!" HAHAHAHA !!!!

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FRIENDS: Want the money they loaned you back next week.

Michigan Friends: Can't begin to remember who owes who money after taking care of each other for so long.

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FRIENDS: Will say "I can't handle Tequila anymore".

Michigan FRIENDS: Will say "okay, just one more..." and then 2 minutes later "okay, just one more!".

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FRIENDS: Will talk shit to the person who talks shit about you.

Michigan FRIENDS: Will knock them the Fuck out!!

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FRIENDS: Will tell you "They'd take a bullet for you."

Michigan FRIENDS: Will actually take a bullet for you.

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FRIENDS: Will ignore this

Michigan FRIENDS: Will repost this

so today i was talkin to Adam one of my friends who i work with and next thursday we're goin out to cabelas so i can get backpack supplies so once this school year is over i'll be disapering for a few days here and there to go wonder in the wilderness. i love workin with him and hangin out with him we have really good conversations and they are always insightful

so my eventual goal is to get good enough at backpacking to take a 6 month sabbatical in the wilderness up north of which i'll go out with supplies a bow hopefully made by my friend Eberline some arrows and a pistol in case of a moose or bear and just be one with nature

but i've gotta build up experiance first so i think a couple days at first then a week and build up to the big trip he really encouraged that i do it before i get wrapped up in this society and get trapped by obligations

oooo i just thought of this a backpack trip around ireland or somewhere like that maybe learn spanish and backpack around peru eventually man that would be awesome

i'm excited only a month left on this semester then my adventures can begin :D

well my mom had to go back to the hospitable because her heart is giving her problems again :-/

ever just sit there and be upset about something and have no clue why? i'm on edge for seemingly no reason i wish i knew why. i can feel my pulse heightened and i generally just feel weird shit's goin down and i want the memo telling me what it is . this feeling started at work and hasn't gone away good thing i got tomorrow off maybe i just need to lock myself in my apartment and not deal with the world
maybe i'm sick or something i feel warm maybe i'm just stressed out i honestly have no clue what's going on, i'm shaky and confused
so basically what the fuck

http://www.personaldna.com/report.php?k=RpJHnMaWsHFHQaX-GC-AADCA-8a96&u=032e984d0d20

meh close enough

well i'm back from the first of the series of weekends of working with Mateyo and i have so say it was a great weekend going out the Renora was really nice and it is really beautiful out there the weekend really helped me get my head back on straight and reaffirm my place as a shaman

i won't go into too much detail simply because typing it all out would take too long but i have to say i'm glad i got started back up again i feel nice and relaxed and reenergized i worked through a lot of things and feel like i can start a new chapter now

i really wish i could go to convo this year and just hang out just as something fun to do but i can't get the time off work and school
and i actually miss goin out to ren fair

A gift from a former self

don't think i don't know
don't think i'm that naive
i know, i saw,
don't confuse my kindness for stupidity
don't confuse my lack of words with a lack of sight
i see it all
and nothing can hide it from me
for the air is my eyes
for the stars tell me all
Let, The, Darkness, Come.
time, time is what i need?
another crafted lie to protect?
whom?
me?
or you?
patterns,
humans are creatures of habit
and we all have the same
i watched this play out
a million times
so,
don't think i need protection
i've no time left for games
sprouted from lies
why?
i need not sympathy
i need truth
for sympathy is a sugar coat for lies
and he feeds on that
a growing fire burns
and you would fuel it?
you would cast more wood on that flame?
is your heart really in this?
is mine?

the dark tendrils
tighten their grasp

how many lies can one man take?
before he loses it all
will the shadows lift and reveal
a broken
a shell
of his former self?
or
in a baptism of fire
will he
be
reborn?
time,
we all need time,
how much did you really take?
how much did you really need?
stealing
stealing
stealing
will it never end?
another pattern?
is that what being human is?
to steal?
to require VENGEANCE?
to REQUIRE THESE FLAMES?
TO REQUIRE ENEMIES CRUSHED?
TO SEE THEM BEG TO BEG AT MY FEET?
TO WATCH ALL FADE TO NOTHING?
i feel within this damaged vessel
feelings reawoken
long dormant
feelings of a former self
locked in that box
breaking free
he who is of fire
he who is of hate
he who is of me
shall i fight the door opening?
or shall i give in to its demands?
shall i destroy?
or shall i let live?
will this corner overtake?
questions
questions
so many
left
that of the past
left undone
will the mask of spikes reawaken
will the fire consume me?
or strengthen me?
for cruelty is the ultimate pleasure
for him
is there enough left?
enough left to stop him this time?
never
never
never
shall i see this pattern again
i will not stand it
i shall
i shall allow this door open
allow the fires to surround me
once again
and
i shall
be reborn
stronger
than before
come
come to me
WRATH

it's nights like these when i wonder why even bother

why bother trying to find new people
why bother trying to build new relationships
why bother doing anything for other people at all?

i apparently am doing something wrong in every relationship i begin because they all seem to end in the same way so what the fuck? everyone says they want a nice guy well i'm a nice guy but whoops he's too nice i guess so i can walk all over him and do whatever the fuck i want seems to be the sentiment
tomorrow's the night i've gotta break it off before this one kills me and any semblance of the mike everyone knows is gone for good all these things are building up it's driving me crazy

just fuck it after this one i'm not looking for anyone else for a while and even then i'm not gunna actively look the universe will give me someone right? cuz everyone time i look i get screwed so forget it

or maybe hell maybe this mike needs to die maybe i should just be a cynical asshole they all seem to do just fine, mom always said treat people with respect and you'll get it back, that doesn't seem to be the case so why should i pour out all this kindness and respect when i get none back?

so i guess basicly this post accomplished nothing but who the fuck really cares i sure as hell don't anymore

fuck

damn i drank way too much on an empty stomach last night i feel like shit

but the party was fun it was a goin away party for one of the guys over in produce since he's movin out to chicago

i passed out not 20 feet from his front door trying to walk home ugh not drinkin that much ever again luckily some people dragged me inside and plopped my drunkard ass on a chair where i woke up this morning


...shit gotta work in a couple hours

...i'm an asshole